Five Minute Friday: Real

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I’ve thought about turning 30 entirely too much. Enough that it’s become more of a milestone than it is. I have two children, a nearly 8-year-old marriage, a writing career. It makes sense that I would be well into adulthood.

But it still feels strange.

I feel a little worn. More and more OK with the fact that I’ll probably never wear a size 2 or even a size 8, maybe. OK with my frizzy hair and overgrown eyebrows and even OK with my crazy back and its healing process.

I am Beloved–by my sweetheart, by my kids, by my dear friends, by my mom and dad and sister and scores of relatives, and most of all, by my Maker.

At almost-30, I am finally getting the Whole of the Gospel, that it’s so little about me and so much about God and His love and His work. I am vapor. And that’s OK.

Rubbed a little raw inside. Belly stretched from two babies’ growth inside. Freckles. Gray hairs.

Maybe, like the Velveteen Rabbit, I am Real now.

 

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Sometimes on Fridays I write along with others for just five minutes, letting all the words spill out and refusing to edit them. This week’s topic was “Real.”

11 thoughts on “Five Minute Friday: Real

  1. Should that be “dear” friends, rather than “dead” friends?

    Thirty is the beginning of real life. No longer thought of as a post-adolescent (in spite of all your responsibilities) you are free to discover who you really are, who you want to be. The challenges you face may be harder, but you’ve more life experience with which to meet them. On the other side, in many ways the joys are deeper, more sustainable, more cherished than when we are younger.

    And while we are vapor, we are vapor that is deeply, passionately, feverntly and forever loved by God, no matter our age.

    • Diane, I feel idiotic because I saw that typo and made a joking FB status about it … and then didn’t change it. Ha!

      True about people no longer having assumptions about someone in their 20s (assumptions I have NEVER filled!).

  2. Dropping in for 5 Minute Friday:

    My 30’s were used by God to get me where I am today. My 30’s shaped me. My 30’s were hard and blessed.

    I hope you have a glorious birthday! Mine is next week and I’ll be 41! Yeah for May Babies!

  3. Such a beautiful place to be…the realization of who you are as a child of God.
    When I turned 30 I had no idea who I was or where I was going. I spent the first 4 years of that decade running and running hard! Mid 30’s God took hold of my life and spun me in a complete 180. Now in the first few months of 40 am in a place where I can say “I am real now”!
    Have a beautiful birthday!!
    (just popped over from Lisa-Jo’s)

  4. I wrote of the Velveteen Rabbit today:) It’s all a matter of perpective…I remember in college running on time with an “older” woman and thinking wow…I hope when I am her age I can still run…she was 32:) Now what I consider an older woman is no longer 30…or 50…it would now be 80:)
    It is so wonderful for the truths you are learning as a young momma…and I am not sure nothing makes us more real than mothering…have a great birthday celebration…you and my daughter are the same age. Now that can make a person feel old:)

  5. You are definitely HIS beloved! Nice post. Having a child has truly broken me even more. It made me realize how much I take things for granted and that I am only HIS tool to bring about his example to my family and my new baby. Happy Friday and here’s to 30! I keep on saying that line, since I am already 33, from Harry met Sally “I’m gonna be 40!”, when? “Someday!” Mwhaaa

  6. I stopped by from 5 minute Friday because your title grabbed my attention 🙂
    Turning 30 was a big deal for me! But more and more I am thinking this a good age to be! I am discovering (finally) who I am and feel more mature and equipped to do some things (while still feeling very inadequate at others)
    Love your heart!
    When you get a chance, stop by my blog and say hi 🙂

  7. I’ll be turning 34 this year and I have found that although I have in no way arrived, I am coming into my own in a way I never did in my 30’s. There are a lot of things I have let go of and I’m more accepting of myself and my flaws knowing that I am enveloped in grace. I think after a decade of this my 40’s are going to be awesome. Real, even if we’re worn is always a good place to be. 🙂 Thanks for sharing your 5 minutes with me.

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